There comes a time in everyone's life when your mind and heart does not agree. In other words, what your mind wants you to do is not accepted by your heart. Recently in my life, I also had to face such crisis.
I met this inspiring person at the beginning of last year. Our acquaintance didn't??? mean much to either of us at that time. It became a habit for us to see each other more often because we worked at the same place. I always observe and try to learn more about the people I meet. In this manner I started observing him, but compared to others, I was finding it really hard to know what this man was all about. However, after my endless efforts, I came to know what he showed to people was nothing compared to his real personality. This made me more curious and urged me to discover more about him. What I discovered was not surprising to me, because he turned out to be exactly the way I had imagined. He was the most warm-hearted, caring and affectionate person I have seen until this day in my life.
Gradually, as we met, we came to know more about each other. Not realizing into what I was letting my self into, I confided in him. To my surprise, he became the first ever person who would share all my surprise and the agonizing experiences of my past. A small fire of hope lit in my heart, thinking I had almost met the person who would always be there for me. Someone who would take care of me and love me so much that the raw wound which are bleeding unbearably inside me would heal. Hope is like glass. Fragile and beautiful, But once it falls, it shatters not even leaving the trace of what it was before. The small pieces shatter so far away from each other, they can never find its way back, to become whole again, the same thing happened to my hope too; it shattered into pieces when I discovered that I was too late. I had no place left in his life or in his heart. He already had someone who was the world for him. For him, his life has started a longtime back. I didn't???t know what to do, whether to run or hide whether to stay and face the reality, the truth that he is someone else. But in the end I realized I had no choice, DID I??? Because, even if I fled away I found that I would never be able to forget him. Long time back he had taken a place in my heart, which I would never be able to give anyone else. So what was the use of running away? When you know that whatever you do or whomever you meet in your life, he is going to part of you forever.
I had always thought that we humans are capable of doing whatever we set up mind to, but I was wrong. In spite of my tireless efforts to forget him, I still could not. Day and night I tried to accept what my mind wanted but however much I tried, my heart won in the end. At last, I gave up the idea of trying to forget him. What is the use of doing something you are not capable of? Instead, I decided that I would be there in his life as a friend, as a helper and make things easier for him. I never ever wanted to be a burden upon him. Nothing lasts forever. I know that he will be soon out of my life, far away where I would never be able to reach him. It makes me feel sad for there is nothing I could do to stop him. However it makes me feel very wonderful, to know that he is going to be very happy being able return to his life. What are left with me are the sweet and lovely memories of this wonderful person. These memories which I will treasure in my heart till the day I die. Wherever he is, I will always pray for his well being, because unknowingly he has done so much for me, which is more than I can thank for. Life goes on, despite the complications we face. We meet new people everyday and sometimes we tend to forget our old friends. Nevertheless, one thing I am sure of is that is that I will never forget this person who I met in my life
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